Hello again! I decided to try out a different blog theme for this page. All of the content is the same still. What do you think? I like the colors in this one, but the old one had a less complex background and may have been easier to read.
In general, people usually don’t like changes that aren’t necessary, but sometimes people on the autistic spectrum can be bothered by changes that others barely notice. A couple of months ago, I read a blog entry posted by a mother whose little girl is on the autistic spectrum. It was about a time she found her daughter struggling to hold back tears, telling herself “Sometimes things change, and that’s okay” in a method she had practiced to calm herself down. The cause for her distress was that the TV show she was watching had changed its opening sequence for a new season. She had been expecting the familiar opening that had been there every time, and something different was suddenly in its place.
I found that post very moving, because I can remember going through some of the same things as a young child. One time, I was watching an episode of Sesame Street that somehow involved a marching band visiting the show. I can barely remember the episode itself, but I do remember that as the credits rolled, they had the marching band perform the theme instead of using the piano and harmonica recording that had appeared every other time. I was caught totally unprepared and burst into tears! On a half-conscious level, I was familiar with each note and time interval in the song, and not only was the band using totally different instruments to play it, but they weren’t hitting all of the notes exactly right! I just wanted to get away from it.
I had a similar reaction if I was listening to a song and the record or tape speed got messed up and the sound got distorted. I always found it very disturbing to hear something familiar distorted into a grotesque form, with the essence of the original still there, just… twisted.
I am thankful that, as I have grown up, I have become less sensitive to that sort of sensory input. I’m not entirely sure what has helped me besides experience, but I suspect that my love of science fiction may have helped me in this area. Science fiction often uses a distorted or unfamiliar point of view to show readers or viewers something about human nature. It can use a creature from another world as a mirror for ourselves, or it can show the consequences of our ideas by removing all limitations and showing what kind of future might result. I’ve come to appreciate how storytellers use the weird and unsettling at times to tell a story of great importance and beauty.
Like anyone, I still worry about unwelcome changes in my life, of course. But I still have the same thing to cling to as I did when I was a child– God never changes, and he has promised me that I belong to him. Despite all the things in life that can scare or worry me, God is over them all, and he will not break his promises.
“I the LORD do not change. So you, the descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed.”
— Malachi 3:6
Hmm– I think I’ll keep this background for a while. It seems to be helping me to start writing again.